User blog:Hope Lancaster/Trying not to let the vulnerable side show

You know how sometimes when you're hurting, you pretend to be fine, so that you don't let everyone know that something is wrong? I used to be a very social person. I used to always smile...I was always happy. But then, something made all of that happiness go away. I've always hated being vulnerable to people. Because when you're vulnerable, you can get hurt. I try to act like i I'm okay. I am still trying to be that happy person. But...I'm not. I'm..I don't know. It's like i don't fit in anymore. I try not to let everyone know that i'm hurting but sometimes I slip up and then all at once everyone asks questions and...I just can't control my emotions anymore. I either have an anxiety attack or i just...Break down in tears and can't breathe...